Misdirection

I have an admiration and a fear of magic – the power of making someone feel, think & believe.  Mirrored in the arts; artists, musicians and actors like magicians have the capability to direct, divert and deceive.  Magic in particular often uses misdirection.  Using it to make a mundane action, exciting, mystical, and magical. Over … Continue reading

Colours of my mind

I have never been able to sleep very well.  From not being able to get to sleep to not sleeping through the night. Tonight is a bad night. I know that I should not think about it in that way as It will not help the situation, ‘Positive thinking’ It’s all about ‘Perception’ and all … Continue reading

*Trust*The*Process*

Every blog I write starts with a list of words.  My inspiration for writing.  My brainstorm.  My pains. From that point I start to form sentences, creating threads to weave them together, ready to iron them into sense. Today I have been starring at the list for hours and instead of ‘weaving threads’, my head … Continue reading

Broken

Over the past few years I have been learning more and more about how our brains work believing that if I understood what was happening in my mind then I would be able to learn how to manage my mind better.  More recently I have been learning about the chimp and the human, the old … Continue reading

The ‘kick’

Trying to describe depression is hard at the best of times, exasperated when you are actually feeling depressed.  Depression suffocates you in a way that most people don’t think is possible.  It drains you. What has been frustrating me is what triggers my depression. Understandably when something bad happens, it is upsetting and that’s normal.  … Continue reading

Looking for my AA

A friend of mine was surprised to hear that a majority of alcoholics will attend an AA meeting every week for the rest of their lives. I wasn’t. I realise that the reason I wasn’t is because recently I have been toying with the idea of going back to therapy after having almost 7-8 months … Continue reading