Shhhh

Wouldn’t it be nice if we all had a ‘Shhh’ button? One that ‘Shhh’ed all the shit. Particularly the shaking. After a few good days, it’s back. I feel like I’ve climbed a mountain and been kicked back down. I promised myself I wouldn’t be fooled and get too carried away, but it’s happened anyway. … Continue reading

Lights, Camera, Action

I am currently ‘playing’ the biggest role of my life: the competent, multitasking Marketeer! It’s one of the hardest roles I’ve ever had to play. Why is it so hard? It’s the effort. The continual minute by minute thought process about ‘What should I be doing now?’  ‘What happens next?’  ‘What did I used to … Continue reading

Pause || Play

It’s almost unbelievable that I was away so long.  Each day has merged into one big blur in my mind. My memories are vague and simple. Every night I would go to bed and wonder how I’d feel the next day. Would I be scared?  Would I feel normal?  Would I be able to get … Continue reading

Forward Thinking

Part 1: Mind vs. Matter I have spent the past week contemplating how much of our perceptions and reactions to experiences are shaped by our mind (all previous experiences/lessons learnt/strength of person) vs. simple biological matter (chemical imbalances). While looking for answers to help me move forward and to shape my future, both seem valid … Continue reading

Thank You

Thank you for all your texts. Thank you for your calls. Thank you for your Facebook messages. Thank you for continuing to text. Thank you for ‘Liking’ or commenting on my posts on my blogs/Facebook/Twitter/Instagram. Thank you for reading. Thank you for helping to make me feel normal. Continue reading

Great Expectations

The beginning of last year, I had great expectations for the future and felt that it was time to focus on myself.  This blog became part of that journey. This year; who knows. The journey my life has taken, has impacted me in a way that I never expected.  And it aint all that great. … Continue reading

Multiple chances

I noticed that I was on a bus with same woman I had got on the bus with in the morning…how often does that happen? I met a guy on a bus…what are the chances of bumping into the same guy on the bus months later at a different bus stop despite the friendship ending? … Continue reading

Bristol, give me a signal

Originally posted on the majesty of smallness:
Bristol. City of squats whose graffiti is a more famous landmark than its cathedral, who has a bakery called Bread an’ Ting, a home-ware store called Happytat and a stationery shop called Paper Gangsta; even your shop names have a sense of humour. Whose native Brizzle drawl involves…

Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

It’s been a while since I’ve written.  It’s been a while since I’ve known how to write.  The subjects are always there…I have lists and lists of topics to write about.  Half finished ramblings of all the things spinning in my mind at one given time, but actually formulating it into something that sounds ‘right’ … Continue reading