There are nights that I get home and I just don’t have any energy.  No motivation.

‘Almost Famous’ is my favourite movie and tonight, I am reminded why – without even watching it – I am reminded of a quote:

“…and if you ever get lonely, just go to the record store and visit your friends…”

So here I am, visiting my friends…while I write.

My last post, I wasn’t in the mood to do both.  In that moment, I hadn’t had the belief that I could write and listen.  But it’s funny how things can change so quickly.

One of the ideas I’ve been musing is the ‘The Beauty of Uncertainty’ and whether I can truly believe in it.

To me, music is my lifeline and the meanings in lyrics I identify with, have inspired, comforted and literally saved my life. 

‘The Beauty of Uncertainty’ is a song by KT Tunstall – and this concept of seeing beauty in uncertainty is something I am constantly intrigued by, but by no means sure about.

Uncertainty is scary.  I have often stated that I don’t like surprises for the fear of looking silly or being embarrassed.  I’m one of those people that can feel uneasy when there is no plan.  I feel insecure and out of control which I hate.

Yet, have you ever had your fortune told?  I haven’t.  I couldn’t.  I don’t believe in it at all.  The one time a friend tried to read my palm, the 2/3 things he told me have been spinning in my head ever since and I didn’t want to know.

I guess I’m beginning to understand why I believe there is a place for ‘uncertainty’ as it doesn’t mean that ‘fate’ or ‘karma’ have control, but you can have direction and influence however not always be certain of the outcome and that can be beautiful – but only if you let it.

I think for me, I use it to keep me grounded.  It helps me to ‘not sweat the small stuff’ and it reminds me to embrace and see the positives in each moment.

And tonight is a moment that proves that I’m glad things didn’t go as planned.  I’m glad that I didn’t know what was going to happen.  Even on such a small scale and even if only for one short evening…

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