Yellow is Dead

August 2, 2014

Labelling – Dedicated to John, Kurt & Julia

I grasp and grab at each flitter of love John told me “hold on to whatever will get you through”* I fold it careful into a heart-shaped box** Treasure for me, my future, Courtney’s too You question my situation Label it abuse So I tell you… Don’t be ashamed to let yourself feel […]

July 25, 2014

inbetween

Being inbetween is a tough place to be. I think it’s why I’m find things feel like I’m on a rollercoaster. It’s so tiring. inbetween houses. ————————— inbetween managers. ————————— inbetween job roles. ————————— inbetween relationships. ————————— inbetween family? Even though many of these things have an end in sight, it’s difficult to be positive […]

July 20, 2014

Journey to the middle

During these past few months, my journey has been: enlightening, inspiring, insightful and motivational. All jargon words, but it sums up how my mind has been working through things in a way that I don’t think I really have before. I’ve always been a glass half empty kinda gal, and now, it’s definitely half full! […]

April 28, 2014

It’s Okay to Not Know

Spot on

March 28, 2014

Shhhh

Wouldn’t it be nice if we all had a ‘Shhh’ button? One that ‘Shhh’ed all the shit. Particularly the shaking. After a few good days, it’s back. I feel like I’ve climbed a mountain and been kicked back down. I promised myself I wouldn’t be fooled and get too carried away, but it’s happened anyway. […]

March 25, 2014

Lights, Camera, Action

I am currently ‘playing’ the biggest role of my life: the competent, multitasking Marketeer! It’s one of the hardest roles I’ve ever had to play. Why is it so hard? It’s the effort. The continual minute by minute thought process about ‘What should I be doing now?’ ‘What happens next?’ ‘What did I used to […]

March 18, 2014

Pause || Play

It’s almost unbelievable that I was away so long. Each day has merged into one big blur in my mind. My memories are vague and simple. Every night I would go to bed and wonder how I’d feel the next day. Would I be scared? Would I feel normal? Would I be able to get […]

March 14, 2014

Forward Thinking

Part 1: Mind vs. Matter I have spent the past week contemplating how much of our perceptions and reactions to experiences are shaped by our mind (all previous experiences/lessons learnt/strength of person) vs. simple biological matter (chemical imbalances). While looking for answers to help me move forward and to shape my future, both seem valid […]

March 11, 2014

Thank You

Thank you for all your texts. Thank you for your calls. Thank you for your Facebook messages. Thank you for continuing to text. Thank you for ‘Liking’ or commenting on my posts on my blogs/Facebook/Twitter/Instagram. Thank you for reading. Thank you for helping to make me feel normal.

February 27, 2014

Great Expectations

The beginning of last year, I had great expectations for the future and felt that it was time to focus on myself. This blog became part of that journey. This year; who knows. The journey my life has taken, has impacted me in a way that I never expected. And it aint all that great. […]